Soooooooo

So where to begin....

Well i invited a girl over to mine, more specifically the girl i broke up with a few months ago. We've tried to stay friends and it was alright for a while.. but the first time she came round things spiralled out of control and.. (actually i'll leave it at that).

Hence the need for her to come round again.... i wanted to make things better between us, to prove that we can just hang out as two friends and have a laugh. I mean we're able to talk to each other about anything, and to be honest, the thought of not being able to spend time in the same room as her scares me.

I tried as much as i could to resisit doing anything. We ordered food, watched a silly movie, froze to death in this horrible little flat.... but it was all in vain

I kissed her

I couldnt help it

I fought the urge for aslong as i could and now shes gone to work and probably never coming back...

Yet again another bright idea...

Catch up

Ok, so its been a heck of a long time since ive ranted on here and thought i'd fill in the gaps since last we spoke..

As excited as i was for Uni... it sucked. I made a few friends (not many) and failed my second year. I dropped out and although a slight regret i managed to find something much better

I got an apprenticeship. True its been more time out of my life studying..but atleast this has been hands on! Everyday i get to work with my hands fixing machinery and thats the whole reason i wanted to be in engineering in the first place. Ive made alot of new friends and get paid in the process, so hey, uni could be for a later date

As for my personal life, i met a girl 3 and a half years ago and had the longest relationship ive had with anyone.. however this wasnt a happy ending, weve been broken up about a month or so now (my choice) as i wasnt happy, but not getting into that now..i wish her the best

Im feeling the life lessons and independance take hold as im now living in a flat by myself. Sure it seems lonely at times and most days id prefer someone to share it with, but you cant beat coming home from work to peace and quiet..

Signing off as i have an early start tomorrow, but here's to future (and more frequent) posts :)